When you ask the universe for a reset expect fire...HUGE CHANGE, SUPER QUICK.
Holy shit, friends. Remember when I got into crystals and started setting intentions; asking the universe for thangs???
(It wasn't that long ago.)
Within days I had a crazy, dramatic conversation with my manager and faster than I could say "bad pimp" home girl was terminating our toxic contract and I was free.
IZE FREE! IZE FREE NOW!
I left for a birthday bestie vacation soon after. I rode off into the sunset feeling new and hopeful. Then vacation ended and reality slapped me in the face.
Current mood: I am back at square one, post-manager.
I didn't even move that much! I was still waiting for the manager to help me navigate my way through tv and film audition doors.
I've been scared shitless for two days now while working in full mom mode--doing things for Z's upcoming second birthday. This has helped me chill out some...
"It's good that my auditions have dropped down. You need this time for doing life things...start working out again. Do home shit. Do life. Slay at life!"
...but I'm still feeling scared. I was auditioning twice a day, every day. Now I'm lucky to get two a week. I still have to work on my demo reel...I'm hoping to get that completed by the end of April so that I can start the scary ass process of finding a better, kinder, more successful manager who sees my dang potential and wants to help me work towards my dang goals.
Now I just need a crystal for helping me navigate fears. Anyone?
Hello my name is Tish and I am hippie-ish.
If you've been following my Instagram stories you may have caught my subtle hints that I'm annoying the shit out of my husband when it comes to possessing some black tourmaline + quartz in order to ward against negative energy. (I love how it just sucks in all that bad juju and flips it like a pancake into something positive.) Can't a girl believe in the power of a stone?! Can't I live?!?!
(Note to the reader: We can all thank Elaine Welteroth from Teen Vogue for planting the idea in my head. Officially on team hippie thanks to a casual crystal mention.)
So...I've been on this quest, right... been asking around, checking hippie-esque stores, but haven't found the stuff. Out of the blue my acting coach/mother mentor/guru goddess asks if I can read a short story of hers and edit it if needed. So I agree because everything this woman writes is amazing. She's magic. Her words are spells. I shit you not.
I DEVOUR the story and promptly fall in love with the characters, edit it and send it back; gushing over the work she's created. We get to talking and she learns I'm looking for the black tourmaline and BLOOP! Here comes some black tourmaline in the mail as a thank you gift. I have to share her words because this woman put me in the best mood today and when I love something I tend to spoil it...Since I currently love the world (read: you) I give thee a teeny bit of this woman's magic:
The tourmaline and the other crystal are to grid you and your house and family. I wouldn't walk around with them. I will find you little chunks of tourmaline and other stones to have when you are traveling. I have little chunks I keep in my bra.
Now that was powerful that you bonded the tie in blood! I would keep it by my bed or an altar or someplace where you set intentions or pray/meditate. If you don't have a meditation corner place it near the family table where you all convene. It will protect any gnarly or sticky energy from coming into your home. That crystal from the "recorder" crystal will clarify and communicate your intention/wishes/dreams manifesting into reality without you having to live old patterns to do it. It carries the knowledge of all your times being on this hunk of rock. I always say when stating any intention with grace and perfect ways. I have struggled enough in order to learn a lesson and I don't want to do that anymore.
The Tourmaline will absorb all the negative and transmute it to positive. It is a most remarkable stone. I loved that it ended in a pyramid with three distinct divisions at the end like a wand crystal. A point of manifestation intention clarity for Zoey , For Mark and For YOU!!! It chose you more than I chose the rock for you.
I placed Himalayan salt around it to clear it like the ocean because lord knows those who love us most carry the most energy towards us and sometimes good intentions become manipulations. Like Rumi said we come through our parents and teachers we are not them nor beholding to them, we are not their possessions. So you blow on your stone and set your intention for it.
And so it is!
Okay can you SEE why I crave this woman's correspondence? I mean... SHIT. Quoting Rumi and thangs...
I've been working silently like Kunta over here trying to make moves with my career. Working on that post... it'll come soon. I'm now editing the mentor's novel (a 400 page one!), preparing for Mark's family to come into town, preparing for an upcoming birthday trip...all while "balancing" commercial auditions, motherhood and sanity. Sanity always comes last.
So...it could be awhile, but it's all super exciting. Stay tuned!
ps I'm in THREE commercials right now y'all! THREE. I'm feeling like I'm putting in Beyoncé hours over here.