It's been awhile since I've seen an actual music video. Jersey and I were at the library on Saturday studying, reading and going over the music set for our reception when I stumbled upon this Of Monsters and Men video. It's so beautiful. Reminds me of the Smashing Pumpkins Tonight video from back in the day. God bless art. Pretty things put me in the best moods and get my creative juices flowing.
And boy did they start to flow...
While the video is all abstract and beautiful, the lyrics are far from light and whimsical. It hits home when it comes to mental illness and how it effects a relationship. I've been on anti-depressants for a couple of years now and so I forget just how bad and dark it was...and how wonderful Jersey was to me. He's the man's voice in this song...the one who had NO frickin clue what depression looked like, but said he'd grab my hand and walk with me anyway. He's never let go.
We've spoke lately about the whole baby making thing...once we're married I'm going to work with my doctor to wean myself from the drugs so we can start trying. If I were with any other man that wouldn't even be an option. I think a big fear of those who suffer as I do is the judgy part. We don't want to be judged when we're going through that dark stuff we absolutely have no control over. I know in my bones I can try this out and he'll be there.
Damn it all, I'm lucky. I'm thankful and I'm lucky!
"Thought the truth may vary, this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore."