2012: The Year in Review

2012 is almost over. How did that happen!? Why do I care?! It was a hard one! Why am I asking myself questions and not giving the answers?! 

To be a bit "half full" for a moment, the year wasn't a complete wash. There were some really sweet moments and I'm sitting here chillin under a roof. I have both my legs and arms. I have a job, a dude who's pretty darn awesome sauce and good friends. It's for these perky pollyanna positives that I was able to create this montage. 

Thanks to the goodies. Suck it to the baddies. Onward to whatever the future holds!

Django. The D is Silent.

First he made a film about a woman who had been done dirty. She got revenge. (Kill Bill)

Then he did a film about WWII....some American soldiers got some good revenge on Hitler. (Inglorious Bastards)

Now Quentin Tarantino has Django--a film that deals with slavery and one man's revenge.

Notice a pattern here? I love me some Tarantino films. I'm not one of those clever beasts that can break it down...I know next to nothing about his subtexts....what actors and stunt doubles always appear in his films or special shots he always uses, yadda yadda. The films are just entertaining as holy hades, but finally after the third film I get it. He loves giving historical underdogs their fantasy kick ass moment.

Django was funny, difficult, gory, lovely, entertaining and powerful. When I found out Spike Lee refused to see it because he respects his ancestors too much, my butt began to twitch. Does he assume this film is offensive? Does he think you'll leave the theater thinking slavery's not a bad idea at all?  Did he ever read Octavia Butler's Kindred?! She wrote a Sci-Fi book that dealt with slavery....was that offensive as well, good sir? Annoying. Usually I'm down for a good movie critique, but I feel like Mr. Lee is throwing some major jealous salt towards this film. Totally unwarranted (FYI) because the movie is the bomb dot com.

And before anyone gets all cray on me for being confused by Spike Lee's stance I ask you to remember that he backed that dreadfully offensive film that Kevin Willmott did at my Alma mater, KU (Confederate States of America) which was TERRIBLE. I left the theater thinking the audience might just reinstate some good ole slavery. He made it look charming and delightful. Not cool.

If you like Tarantino films, see this. If you want to see a fictional flick about one slave who pulled a Nat Turner and revolted most gloriously then see this film. I personally was proud of Kerry Washington and Jamie Fox...as well as the entire cast for their acting chops. It was no easy task to do what they had to do in some of those scenes...

Have you seen it? Care to share your thoughts? What do you think of Spike Lee's reaction? Warranted or stupid as heck?

For the curious: Here's a good piece on the movie. I was right there with the Cord on this one!

A Walk in the Park

Someone got a camera...

A camera she named Maxwell (because it's black and sexy.)

Jersey gave me  a homework assignment yesterday: he placed my camera and my beautiful lenses in my hands and told me to start shooting. I have NO clue what I'm doing with Maxwell, but I'm trying my hardest to see...see the light and the shadows...see where to focus. 

People are always complaining that the person who holds the camera misses out...they're somehow too busy...that doesn't bother me one bit. Snapping makes me pause and look around. I stop and snap the roses, dang it! I walked through my neighborhood...watched as people uncomfortably stared wondering if I was paparazzi and where the celebrity was.  

It all works for me. 

Holiday Happiness

I had a wonderful holiday with Jersey. We skyped with our family, we created new traditions we plan to share hopefully with some future kiddos, planned and executed a good arse meal, and had a good time with friends.

I haven't had a Christmas like that in a long time. Usually once the Christmas sun comes up and the tree lights go off I lose that wonderful luster that's built up over the month. Not this time. As I sit here and right I'm still grinning ear to ear.

The last couple of weeks have been hard and I've been standing under the dark cloud with the umbrella playing a sad song on my tiny violin, but no more! 2013 is going to be different! I've got some lingering holiday joy that's gonna drop kick all the funk. Get ready!

Those new traditions...

The fellas in the kitchen...as they should be

It's a Wonderful Life after all...

Christmas Eve 2012

It's Christmas Eve, but it sure doesn't feel like it! I'm working because for the first time since I moved out here I will not be spending the holidays with family.

Jersey and I have been saving all of our vacation days up just in case we were chosen for that Knot contest. We found out on Friday we will not be one of the couples you can vote for, though so all this work while everyone else is off roasting chestnuts sucks balls.

This is how it went down...

Jersey came home sicker than a dog so I put him to bed, got him boxes of tissues, Lysol, cold meds and juice and then started cleaning and disinfecting the house. I paused for a bit to check my email and that's when I found it...the email from the Knot folks stating they had gotten submissions from hundreds of couples and we just weren't sweet or tragic enough to make the cut.

I just plopped onto a chair and sighed. I texted my mom and facebooked the world and that's when it happened. People kept saying weddings are no big thing...that eloping is totally fine. Even my mom suggested we should hit up the courthouse and my heart broke into a million little pieces when I realized that my dream wedding was every one else's nightmare.

People kept telling me weddings are no big thing...that they're just a waste of money, yet EVERY married couple I know has had a beautiful one that they loved. Weddings are there for a reason. It's a day where you get to celebrate and have fun...a day out of the ordinary. I hear no every day, all day. I've heard no my whole life dang it so for once I just wanted to have a girly moment...a day where we get to walk into a party as husband and wife for the first time and shake our bums into the night. I'm sick of feeling stupid for wanting that.

I've had the whole weekend to cry and come to terms with reality. We will more than likely be cancelling the wedding idea and just going for a courthouse trip. No white dress, no first dance, no friends and family there to witness the happy occasion. This is not a fun realization being that today is Christmas Eve.

2012...you were a very hard year and I am not sad to see you go.

A Glitch in My Gifting!

I'm having THE hardest time with gift ideas this year. I don't know if it's all the allergy meds or wedding ish or what, but I've just been off my gifting game. (Enough to make me arse twitch!!!)

I usually rock at gift whispering, but this year I've relied heavily on lists and STILL haven't rocked that ish completely. Is anyone else having this issue? Am I the only person on the planet who wasn't aware Christmas Eve is on Monday?!

Where did this year go!? I still have a couple days left, but I can tell you right now I failed miserably at Christmas cards this year. I just didn't have the time or mullah to fart out funny ish like I did in the past. No newsletters...I told ya, I'm just not batting like I should be.

I'm the person who has to watch everyone else open their gifts up on Christmas day. I like seeing shock and awe mixed with joy. It's the bee's knees! I need to get my act together...for real!

Mission Christmas Joy! Let's get it together, Tishy!!!!

Dolly dog don't care! Dolly dog don't give a shat!

An Actor's Confession

I wonder how poor gals make it in this biz...

Today I have an audition that requires me to wear a business suit. Business suits are expensive man! The last time I bought one was right after college for job interviews. I wore that suit a couple of years ago for my time on the Young and the Restless and had to listen as the makeup guy snarked at me that the next time I came back I'd have to step into some clothes that weren't so old and outdated.

I cried so hard after I left that man's presence. Snotty punk totally got to me. That suit was $300 which was crazy, ridiculously expensive and is BTW classic...it's moments like that which remind me of how ugly the world of fashion can be...probably one of the reasons I refuse to make it a priority or important.

So yeah...tomorrow I'm wearing THAT suit and I've gained weight so it doesn't fit as great as it once did and I'm nervous that I'll relive the judgement...It's gonna be one of those days where I have to put my pride aside and just go for it.

These girls who have all the money in the world to shop for cute outfits to help them shine a bit brighter in the auditions...they're lucky gals. For the rest of us...well I'm hoping I make the clothes...and that the clothes don't flunk me.

If it's not acne or fever blisters or invisible agents it's something like this. Tiny and silly things, but there are sooo many of them. You have to really REALLY want this life...


J totally just burned any negative thoughts associated with that suit. She suggested I think of it as my "super suit"...Anyone who has watched The Incredibles knows just how hilarious and perfect that is. So in about an hour I shall yell, "Honey!!! Where is my super suit?" and all will be awesome and light in the world. Don't you just love friends with great imaginations?

Snap magazine


There's this super cool online magazine called Snap Magazine that I gawk at on Stella the iPad. Every picture is shot using an iPhone app called Hipstamatic.

I'm a Hipstamatic junkie who was just introduced to the crackfields and told I could go buck buck. Life is sweet. If you have an iPhone or iPad I would check this out. 

It's cool with an extra side of eyegasmic delight.

Nerves of Mush

Monday early morning, (4am to be exact) I woke up excited like it was Christmas day. I couldn't go back to sleep for nothing! I knew it could possibly be the day the Knot could call and say we were one of the top four couples chosen for the Knot Dream Wedding Contest.

So I tossed and turned, then would roll over and smile/stare at Jersey creepily, then I'd toss and turn some more...repeat. I wasn't tired that day, either. I was hyped up on some major nervous anticipation. I probably checked my phone at least once per minute. Not even bullshatting you...I was glued to that darn Poppins...making sure I didn't have missed calls or emails...

My lovely friends were so cute, too. Everyone's just as nervous as we are! I received text after text asking if we had heard anything. This gift would stretch out to soooo many people. My parents (of course) but also two in my wedding party have never been to New York. They'd see The Big Apple in all its winter glory. I'd be able to fly 18 of my loved ones to the city...people who wouldn't have financially been able to afford the trip to LA. The wedding would stream live...every person we know, but couldn't invite would get to participate. The Knot has no idea what dream they've unleashed in me! I want it so bad I can taste it!

That dream wedding tastes like fun, wonder, financial peace, some luuuuv and a dash of kiwi. PLEASE send good thoughts our way. This would mean so much for me and the mistah.

I'll keep you all posted and thank you from the bottom of my wigged out heart for supporting us thus far!


Movie Nights

Ruby Sparks
An indie flick on a Friday night. Yes please!
I truly believed this movie would be a total waste of time. It didn't pluck at my heart strings when it was in the theaters, but it was soooo good. The writing was clever. The acting was nice and sweet and believable...which is hard to do when you're building a story like this one.

Basic premise: boy is genius writer. begins new novel. creates a gal named ruby. ruby is written into existence.

Is it a dream? Is she a figment of his lovely imagination? You won't know unless you peep it out. I recommend it. Copped it on redbox. Best buck I've spent in a loooong time.

PLUS, Zoe Kazan wrote the screenplay (she plays Ruby.) I loved this movie even more when I found out it was written by a woman...love that she played Ruby and had her boyfriend play the main fellow. Keep it in the family yooooo!

Rise of the Guardians
Not an indie flick.
Jersey and I took his mom to see this one. (Yes, it was totally my idea.) I love children's movies. I can't help myself...I love feeding my imagination and wonder. The movie lived up to my hype, too. It wasn't cheesy, kiddy, but it wasn't inappropriately adultish, either. (Yes, I made that word up.)

It had some really sweet and poignant lessons that tugged at my heart quite a few times. I was prepared for that going in. This spiritual love guru bloke I follow on twitter was all verklempt over the movie so I knew it was a sentimental one, but I wasn't expecting such emotional sweetness.

Loved the characters, the story, the animation (Jack Frost is hot. Yeah...cartoon dudes are totally crush-worthy) and most of all the message.

I'm two for two so far and I expect it to only get better!



A couple of weekends ago Jersey made me go to a park with him and do some workouts for his site...

I woke up this morning and headed to the kitchen; walked in and he was looking at me with a weird grin. He said he needed to show me something and then started murmuring about how dorky I was. I was scared. I had no idea what I had done...what he had caught me on tape doing, but then the video above came up and we both started laughing our butts off. Oh yeah...I DID do that.

What can I say. I have a song in my heart that needed to bust out.

So This is Love

This morning I wasn't feeling too hot so I ate breakfast and then went back upstairs to bed. Jersey was snuggled up watching sports and when he saw me he lifted his arm to indicate I could cuddle on up beside him which I did...and then I promptly fell sleep.

A long time ago I wrote a post about how this man smells like sunshine. Like he was hung outside to dry each day and the sun kissed him with her scent. That darn smell has the ability to make my eyes roll back in my head. Before I knew it I was out and he was up kissing me on the forehead telling me to feel better.

We've both been super nervous, anxious, hopeful, crazed about this Knot Dream Wedding Contest. We just want it so bad. We had to tell the editor who called stories about why we love each other so much...I have no earthly idea how to summarize all of the tiny wonderful instances that have led me to wake up each morning saying, "thank you thank you thank you for this man!" but I pray that they caught an inkling of that gratitude from the conversation we had.

I love that sunshine-smelling dude! Love him so much I didn't pop him in the throat this morning when he screamed at my face because I woke up with fever blisters. THAT, my friends, is Luuuuuuv!

My First National Commercial

"Listen to the mustn'ts, child. Listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me... Anything can happen, child. Anything can be." ~Shel Silverstein 

Getting ready for my closeups

We got to shoot a couple of stills, separate from the main commercial. I had a camera in my grill  and loved every dang moment of it!

It happened. After seven years in LA, I booked a commercial. 

The morning of I had this crazy dream. I was watching as this woman was going through the rounds of a modeling competition. She was walking the runway, dressing in next to nothing and strutting her stuff. Then the owner of this prestigious modeling agency (who sat in the front row) spoke and said that only one of the women had been chosen to join the agency...and that person was LaTisha Merritt...me. The girl in the dream was me and I had done it. I remember thinking it was dope that I had given my full name. Then my alarm went off.

I woke up and immediately knew it was THE day. I bounced out of bed right to the bathroom...a place I would visit three times before leaving that morning. I was so nervous. The same kind of crazy nervous I used to get before an acting competition or play...It had been so long since I had felt that particular kind of butterfly and I so I freaked. I wondered if it was normal to experience such discomfort for a dream. I worked through that mess, though and arriving at the spot with five minutes to spare. And then the magic kicked in. A van picked me up to take me to the makeup trailer. I could hear people on walkie talkies confirming I was en route...saying my name. I got to step into a real deal Hollywood trailer and sit in a makeup chair while the assistant director gave me the lay of the land. 

It was surreal. The nerves were gone. I was happy. I was home.

It was a long day. I was exhausted driving home, but it was so worth it. The commercial will air on Fox networks and CNN around the end of January (or so I've heard from one of the parents who was on set.) I'll probably geek out when I see it. I'm so proud of myself for sticking it out. I followed my bliss through the bad and came out feeling the kind of joy I've dreamed of for many, many moons.

The Competition!


Ahhh! One of our friends in New York texted Jersey and told him he had just seen us on the news so of course I had to get on the phone with J (the woman of honor) and start hunting down the video. She's been helping so much with all of this. She tweets the ish out of it and gets giddy with me every morning via email. Friends...gotta love 'em... 

As for the video: Found it. Watched it. Done!

I'm not gonna lie. I'm a bit intimidated by this couple they featured, but I also know that Jersey and I are a good arse couple with a set of our very own financial burdens so I still think we have a good chance. 

I'll be wishing and praying and hoping that we are chosen as one of the four couples that the world at large can vote on come January 7th. I'm going to reach out to as many people as I can and ask them to help us out. That includes you...my lovely kiwi readers! This dream would be a dream of all dreams for a Pisces gal and her groom-to-be!

The Knot Called!!!


So someone from The Knot just called Jersey and I individually and asked us to gab a bit more about our relationship...how we met...what we love about each other. I'm not gonna lie; I got choked up more than once. No, Aunt Flow hasn't called; I just really get emotional when I think about how great he is.

So here's the deal. The editors from the contest will all get together and decide who they want as their top four contestants. Then it's up to the public at large to vote and decide who deserves the dream wedding.

(Hint: We deserve to win!!!)

I love how excited our friends and family are for this! It's addicting and inspiring and touching to boot! I hope we get this! It just feels right!!!

Living My Dream

Today has been so fun!

I took the day off to shoot a fun workout segment with Angela Parker (this totally awesome trainer I started stalking after watching Chelsea Settles on MTV.)

Now that I've successfully gotten my fitness on, I'm now getting ready to head on over to my first official commercial fitting for my first official acting gig.

Oh yeah! Pelvic thrusts! Life is good!

I know life is filled with ups and downs so it's best to appreciate the good when they're around. I'm grateful as a mother trucker for the blessings that are right here, right now. Happiness is shooting out of me!

Get ready...

The Knot Dream Wedding Contest


Directions for my dear friends...

  1. Click on the link above.
  2. Leave a comment on our page stating why you think we deserve to win.
  3. Let me hug you the next time I see you.

I'm so crazed with happiness right now! Back when Jersey and I first started planning we said to ourselves, "We really need to find a wedding contest." I don't know why that popped into our heads, but it did and then three different people sent us this wedding contest to enter. We knew it had to be a sign.

We filmed this video the night I found out I didn't get the commercial (that same commercial I ended up getting after all...) and it totally cheered me up. Reminded me why I'm marrying this man. He's up for anything and totally carefree in the way you want your person to be.

If we win this contest you all will get the chance to see our wedding on a live feed. Pretty cool, eh? Plus Jersey would be marrying in his neck of the woods. He always said he was fine with marrying in LA, but after seeing how excited this possibility made him I know now that was his dream.

I'm feeling mighty loved y'all! (And also excited to boot!)


Santa Monica after a grey, cool weekend. 

Jersey's mama came to visit this weekend. We took her to the Grove, introduced her to Sprinkles cupcakes, walked the 3rd Street Promenade in Santa Monica; basically showing her all of the things we love about Los Angeles...well all the things you can show someone in three days. (It was her first time visiting us!)

This whole mother-in-law thing is so weird for me. I swear I feel like a 14 year old most days. The idea of being engaged...having a mother-in-law, well it makes me giggle...like any minute I'll wake up and my mom will be calling me for dinner and telling me finish my homework. 

I'm frickin grown, though. Definitely engaged with a mama-to-be upstairs in our guest room. Lucky for me, she makes this whole transition pretty easy. 

She knows that I'm a big slice of goofy and she's okay with that. I had a blast with her this weekend. We had a chance to talk and be girly. We laughed and sang Christmas songs in the car together.

I think I scored with this guy and his family. Thank goodness!

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