Yes I understand that every life must end, aw huh,..
As we sit alone, I know someday we must go, aw huh,..
I’m a lucky man to count on both hands
The ones I love...
i apologize for another sad song, but when some one's passing leaves you numb there's nothing else my brain will do.
yesterday i found out that one of my girl cousins who would come up to missouri from mississippi in the summers caught a weird virus/bacteria in her lungs the week after her wedding...and yesterday they took her off life support.
conversations with my mom would end up with me choking in tears...i couldn't even remain calm to keep her steady and straight to face her family. a young cousin passes in a blink of an eye...life is so fleeting...so delicate.
another cousin was the one who called to tell me and together we sat there on the phone totally weirded out and silent. the three of us would play together as kids. we were the oldest of the crew...
i had no clue how to be yesterday. still don't know how actually. she's a facebook friend...and i see people's messages sending her luck and prayers...that page will just remain frozen--a morbid memory that unnerves me greatly.these are the things i can't help but think of. life stopped and we keep going.
they say she woke up a couple of times. she was able to tell her father that if she slipped again, to let her go...
she had three small boys...she had just married (big dream wedding)...only 31 years old...i hadn't seen her in years...my poor aunt and uncle...those poor kids...how is the family holding up and supporting each other?...why does this happen and what does it all mean?
i read a poem as a kid about this tree that caused a man to ponder life and death...every time someone close to me passes i'm reminded of that poem...in this case it's a magnolia tree...that feisty, strong girl let go from a mississippi tree.
my mom said all tracie had ever wanted was a big beautiful wedding and she got that...my mom believes tracie would have wanted us all to remember to carpe diem and go after what makes us happy. after the numb & shock fade i'll try my best.
xoxo tracie steele...rest in peace.