post christmas

12.29.2005
It’s been quite a while since my last blog. I guess a lot and a little has happened all at once. As for my trip back home to KC.... It was great for the most part. I was dead tired the whole way there (that’s what happens when you wake up at 3:00 a.m.) but I happened to wake up right as we were flying over north Kansas City. I couldn’t help but smile…I started to cry. In that moment something weird came over me. I felt like I was going back to another girl’s life…I stepped off the plane and my two best buds were waiting for me at the gate, wearing green (coincidence) and caring a green sign…and I started crying again. We caught up, ate some good bbq, went by my old job (which I missed terribly) and just hung out…went to the plaza…sigh. I saw the lights…I miss Kansas City’s lights. It was surreal. I can’t believe this time last weekI was chillin in KC with my best friend sipping coffee as people in horse drawn Cinderella carriages strolled by. I don’t want to load you up on needless details, but I saw friends and hung with my family…which was weird. My sisters were being really unfair to my mother about the divorce...



As for me, I saw my mom as a woman...void of a mother title. She’s been this archetype character (lacking an autonomous self ) for years --well at least that’s how I saw her)--and now she’s living life on her own terms. She struggles with her new life, but she’s doing it and she loves it and my dad and sisters can’t understand that, which I can relate to. I didn’t see her until I came home. I respect her in so many new ways now.



So that was KC…to really get into it would be painful I think…I miss the place but I’m glad I’m gone all at the same time. Now another holiday is approaching and I just can’t wait to sleep in and rest. The crush and I are in a weird stage. We’re prelims (hee hee) which means he’s doing his own thing for New Years. It’s weird. We haven't been dating all that long so I really have to balance my need to want to hang out with him all the time with the rational tishy who knows we have to have space...Who knows where we’ll be a year from now.



As for me. I'm chillin with my girl Brandi...good chick flicks and chicks make any party cool. I have this really cool New Years party at the end of the month I’m going to as well. We’re going to assess our goals for the year and discuss rational ways of achieving those things. It sounds like a glorious idea. I’ll keep you posted

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