bring on the nerd

10.13.2005
I’ve become that person…the person that has the little bead covers on their car seats to help their back…I now have this little pillow thing lol. I think I might throw up in my mouth a little bit. And please tell me that my blogs will discuss more than just work office blues…office space was funny but there’s only so much we as human beings can take, dang it! on a more positive note, I actually do enjoy driving to work in the morning. I love listening to this morning r&b and hip hop program that ananda lewis hosts. One good thing about L.A. is ya can find some really interesting people on your radio every morning..not to diss Julee jonez and shawn who I miss terribly. This morning I drove in and tried to battle driving while fixing the insert in my tennis shoe…I think it’s finally time to retire the nikes and move on I’m afraid to say. I feel like one of those Chinese woman you read about who used to bind their feet to make them smaller. They are bugging the ultimate crap out of me and I can’t handle it. I’ve been biting people’s heads off all day and it’s totally cuz of my darn foot. Go figure how important foot comfort really is!!! I could beat the crap out of someone right now all because of a stupid insole poking up and making my toes curl…





I hate to be a Debbie Downer as my twin, Chele, would say but I miss “home” so much. It’s funny that I had to leave to feel that it really was home. Everything back there is changing too…my family-the works so I’m really feeling a quote from “Garden State” right now:



“You'll see when you move out it just sort of happens one day and it's just gone. And you can never get it back. It's like you get homesick for a place that doesn't exist. I mean it's like this rite of passage, you know. You won't have this feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself, you know, for you kids, for the family you start, it's like a cycle or something. I miss the idea of it. Maybe that's all family really is. A group of people who miss the same imaginary place.”


I have to book my plane ticket for Christmas soon and I’m kind of scared. With the idea of family vastly changing and my hesitation to join reality it’ll prove to be very interesting. Why did I have to grow up again?





I sat with a cute boy at lunch today in the cafeteria. I’m gonna call him a cute boy because I have a little girl crush...plus it just adds to the cuteness of hanging in a cafeteria. He’s really swell. I couldn’t look at him the whole time we were at lunch because I’d get these little chills up my spine every time he looked at me; giddiness abounds. I wish I knew how to just shut up and be cool when I’m actually crushin on someone, but I don’t. Bring on the dork!

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